The Farm (Draft 01_DEC23)

I thought it would be fun to put up the original version of The Farm, a worldview and perspective I have had since I was around 19-20. It has changed and evolved, but stayed consistent around a similar framework, that the universe is a farm of sorts, and our emotions is an energy to be harvested. I know a lot of religions have come up with this and I am not the first one to have this thought. I believe I state in these notes that I think all of these ideas are similar in all religions, just phrased differently. Sometimes it's used to hurt people.

My main goal is to sorta just poke fun at it to be honest. It used to scare me, and still does, but it also used to bring me great comfort. I think it still can, but I want to rethink how I go about my belief system. For now, here's an unfiltered, completely unsourced and unfounded theory about how I kinda used to think the universe works.

Also I used to call it the Sausage Party Conspiracy, because it is kinda similar to the movie. And I wanna preface, after rereading it, that some of it was rushed. Like I make alot of points without going into enough depth about what I mean for some important things, and it makes it sound dumb. I tried to cover a lot in a short time, which is why I'll call this a draft. But for now, it's the best draft I have of the ideas that came to me.

p.s. it was written in 2023, so think, pre trump second term (also i was 19 and am currently 22 which is a slight difference)

I think this is the part I would've most liked to rephrase, and also reflects my mind state at the time. I think I had good ideas and there's things that I still definitely agree with in here, but not every idea I had was good. I think there's elements of truth to what I'm saying, for us to consider the cosmic scale of how we treat animals, and how we treat other humans on Earth for our daily capitalistic pleasures. But I do think alot of these platitudes are not quite accurate. Humans have always sought their purpose throughout history, which is why I actually think the farm is beautiful. I think back then it used to scare me.

ANyways

LESS BAD NOOO

I think I liked to phrase things almost as like, shock value. To make people go like "woah he's really saying what needs to be said". Even if it's a bit hyperbolic, But yeah. I do think the point is for us to have less guilt, not that it makes our actions less bad.

I wanna add that I meant this more from like. A western audience and perspective. I think I used to not really clarify that, but I'm talking more directly to my generation and the sort of modern capitalistic society. I don't think things have been bad just since industrialization, I think human nature is having a reckoning, on some fucking Garden of Eve shit. We're in the Endgame, I truly believe it. Just because it didn't happen in 1980 doesn't mean it can't happen in 2080, cuz cosmically that isn't a long fucking time. I don't get why the collapse of society is justified to not be happening by "it hasn't happened yet."

anyways

Looking back, I think I'm accepting that I was definitely in a little bit of psychosis, even if alot of it is kinda still what I believe. It feels a lot more profound in your head than it does typed out sometimes, and maybe that's okay. But I still believe in the general premise, that our reality is a farm-like situation, and that our ideas are alive. But hey. Maybe one day I'll revise it when my frontal lobe is developed.