love hard/alien girl

this is a song about my failure, my ultimate sin as a human, being a lustful, prideful, greedy person. this is the first instrumental i created on the album, as i wanted at this time to create music that made your heart stop. i wanted it to sound like time was dragging without any central definition, and that everything in your life was crumbling in this godlike fashion. beauty in feeling like you're more meaningful than this physical realm, but horror in knowing what that means for how you've been here.

i'm trying not to sugarcoat, despite how sad this seems. ultimately i believe that behind all of my sins, the greatest that i have is sloth. my laziness and my tendency to rest, to the point that it breaks my body and relationships. everything i think stems from there, and this whole project is almost me trying to fight this nature in a way. forcing myself to put my all into something and not be lazy. perhaps i've done it, or perhaps it's a lifelong battle i'll be having with the demons.

the last part of the song is something i will leave up to the listener's interpretation